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Your Problems Are Bigger Than You Alone Can Solve
Why I don’t write a lot of self-help anymore.
Look, I’ma level with you. On Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Monday, I wrote just one thing every day. I suppose that’s better than nothing.
Trouble is … I still have four more things I gotta write by tomorrow. I’m not making up ground … I’m losing it.
It ain’t like this ish is hard. Nothing on deck would take me longer than two hours in a vacuum. I keep trying self-care-type things to snap me out of it.
1. 22 days ago, I took my last drink.
2. 22 days ago, I smoked my last smoke.
3. In 15 of the past 22 days, I’ve run 3+ miles outside.
4. I mostly stopped ordering takeout and started cooking my own healthy meals.
5. I am in therapy.
6. Every night, between 8 and 9 p.m., I meditate. Often times, with ketamine.
7. I have at least one phone call with one friend for at least 30 minutes each day, usually a couple.
8. I’ve rearranged my furniture.
9. I clean, militantly, every day.
10. I’ve been getting 8+ hours per sleep, nearly nightly, for the first time in God knows how long.
