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I Wish I Did More Drugs
On Xanax, COVID and lectures from strangers.
[Disclaimer: What follows is *not* medical advice. I am not a doctor. This is a personal account of addiction, unfiltered and unbiased.]
It never fails. Every time I talk about drugs or medicine, some well-meaning goomba busts into the comment section like a holier-than-thou Kool-Aid Man, to lecture me that I should absolutely not be doing that.
It happened again, yesterday, about my Xanax intake. The latest vintage is so pitch-perfect boilerplate that I’ve had to reshuffle my content calendar just to address it. So, here it is, taken as [sic].
It scared the shit out of me to read that you are taking Xanax every day from last 9 years…it doesn’t heal you but just makes you numb and devoid of the the feeling to be alive.
I have understood in my 30 years of living that what works is being with someone who actually loves you, support you and take care of you, that’s the most effective remedy of every problem out there. I wish this blessing for every individual on this earth…Amen!
It’s not the first time I’ve — and therefore they’ve — addressed my low-grade benzodiazepine dependence. It’s a recurring aside here in the…
